特刊撰文抒胸臆

我母校吉隆坡循人校友会购置位于蕉赖Taman Billion的新会所，在2004年2月23日举行开幕礼，同时庆祝校友会成立37周年。

承蒙时任校友会副秘书兼《新会所开幕特刊》编委(也是中学时代低我一届的学弟) 张学平邀稿，发表以下文章，抒发多年写作的感悟与胸臆。

详文可参阅:

http://lautaionn.blogspot.com/2007/05/blog-post_03.html#links

平生第一篇散文

我平生发表的第一篇散文，就是有关1973年4月初参加学校毕业旅行的游记，刊登于当年的毕业特刊。那也是我平生第一次旅游新加坡。意想不到的是，我会在3年后负笈彼邦大学。人生，就是如此难以预料！

多情应笑我的平生诗作两则

“多情应笑我，早生华发。人生如梦，一樽还酹江月。”(苏轼《念奴娇·赤壁怀古》)

  

“多情自古空余恨，好梦由来最易醒。”(魏子安《花月痕》)

“天若有情天亦老,月如无恨月长圆。”(李贺《金铜仙人辞汉歌》/石曼卿赠友联 )

“天若有情天亦老，人间正道是沧桑。” (毛泽东《七律·人民解放军占领南京》)

我自开始舞文弄笔以来，平生只写过以下两则新诗:

(一) 发表于1973年吉隆坡循人中学高中第10届毕业特刊的《哦！宇宙啊，我多么仰慕你》; 

(二) 刊登于1985年4月1日星洲日报的《伤舞》。

《哦！宇宙啊，我多么仰慕你》(笔名: 爱惜)

1. 我在上个世纪60年代末，时值初中便对宇宙太空充满遐思。当时冷战时期的美苏，展开激烈的太空竞赛，年轻的我，对美国的水星(Mercury) 丶双子星座(Gemini)和阿波罗(Apollo)计划的太空探索和登月壮举，深感兴趣，热衷收集火箭升空丶星际漫游的图片; 我平生最喜欢的一部电影，就是1968年上映的《2001太空漫游记》(2001: A Space Odyssey) 。

2. 我在担任主编的高中毕业特刊里便采用不少火箭与星空的图片。我在诗中赞颂宇宙的深邃玄奥等，实乃由衷之言。

3. 然而，本诗主要表达的是我对当年一位低一年级的学妹的暗中倾慕之情，连笔名也植入她的名字。年少轻狂，回味无穷！

摄于新加坡1979年

4. 记得此稿曾交给学校华文老师审阅，发觉若干文字被修改。但我以主编身份坚持原来的遣词用句，送交刊印。

后记:

2020年某日，我“初恋/暗恋”的学妹通过WhatsApp上传了一则照片背后留言，乃我在1974年(高中毕业后的翌年，当时19岁)所写和寄给她的。此举令我惊讶不已，既沉思于过去青春岁月的情怀，也十分感动，不解她何故会收存此照/留言长达46年之久呢？………

《伤舞》(笔名: 唐纳)
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1. 1984年在青团运八打灵支会举办的一次联欢晚会中，邂逅了一位在当晚有份参与舞蹈表演助兴丶小我一岁却同月同日生的女子，开展一段刻骨铭心丶为期只有短短4个月的恋情。

摄于浮罗交怡1984年

2. 分手后非常伤心，惆怅多时。当年乐坛流行 Wham! (George Michael) 的 "Careless Whisper"，其淒美的音乐丶旋律和歌词无不触动我心深处，而且意境有点相似，因此借用赋诗，诉说情殤。数月後投给星洲日报，受到青睐，获得刊用。

3. 年少时曾随波逐流，自取 Donald 洋名，故以"唐纳"为笔名。但年长后舍弃洋名不用。

Careless Whisper

George Michael

[Intro]

Time can never mend

The careless whispers of a good friend

To the heart and mind, ignorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth, pain is all that you'll find

Should have known better, yeah

[Instrumental]

[Verse 1]

I feel so unsure

As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor

As the music dies, something in your eyes

Calls to mind a silver screen and all its sad goodbyes

[Chorus]

I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend, I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I'd been given

So I'm never gonna dance again the way I danced with you

[Verse 2]

Time can never mend

The careless whispers of a good friend

To the heart and mind, ignorance is kind

There's no comfort in the truth, pain is all that you'll find

[Chorus]

I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend, I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I'd been given

So I'm never gonna dance again the way I danced with you

[Post-Chorus]

Never without your love

[Bridge]

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say

We could have been so good together

We could have lived this dance forever

But now who's gonna dance with me?

Please stay

[Chorus]

And I'm never gonna dance again, guilty feet have got no rhythm

Though it's easy to pretend, I know you're not a fool

I should have known better than to cheat a friend

And waste a chance that I'd been given

So I'm never gonna dance again the way I danced with you

[Outro]

Now that you're gone, now that you're gone

Now that you're gone, was what I did so wrong, so wrong

That you had to leave me alone?